k hahas its 2 pathetic days to my boring birthday pls..i m so nt in the mood for my birthday ts like

i m nt even excited at all la....well n onli i persons wish is gonna make my day in tue seriously if that person(definetly nt the person i love hor!!!)

neva wish me i m so gonna be

sad,sad,sad,sad..



k i have been emoing like hell past few days and yup i finally found the courage to tell my sis watever i felt ... and i did i told her everythin i felt relieved but i jus hope she doesnt do anything or ask amyone anything ..



ok n my fake smiles n laughters are back .i suddenlu jus thought of my past and everything i somehow jus cant accept how things are now ... i will jus breakdown.and cry ..

i really regret doing things at times well but i knw god has his purpose for all the things that happen .

..



seriously i really tried replacing u with so many people but somehow not even one of them is able to replace u seriously .. i admit i cant go on withouth u ...i m so nt myself ...

u hav like replaced me with like so many others but none of my friends can replce u ..



k i m seriously down ..

super duper down so people if u guys see me quiet or wat jus dun ever tok n disturb me cause i get angry n moody fast .nowdays .



this post goes out to alot of people so ya ..

and wendy lew was the first to give me my present although i havent opened it cause still have 2 more days to my b'dae ya ..i read the card and so wendy lew wats..."pray that erm..ermm..will ...erm you..suppose to mean !!!! lol

5:56 PM

k yesterday was fun EILEEN AND DEXTER CAME TO MY HOUSE !!!hahah k they came we played uno and snap haah well they oni came for very short time like bout from 3 plus to 5 plus .and wei xiang ..my brother haha came at about 4.45 ahem the real reason shall nt be said but he joined us n played hah and aww dex n wx took turns to wack my hand n eillen's hand till our hands were like so red pls..k after that was off to korean bbq .

.k i n my sis were super late ok sry people well didnt eat much though hah was msging wei xinag n vincent throught and pastor sent us home in his car was bored but thnk god i had my handy dandy.(blue's clue's) mp4 and hp hah msged vincent n dex and listened to song all the way ..and after we gt down we went to meet dexter somewher near my house ya chat for awhile n went home..


4 days to my birthday n for the sec sch eoy's haah

1:37 PM

i sometimes wonder if..we could ever be like last tym sometimes i think yes somethimes i think no well i hav put in alllottt of effort and tried n tried n tried..
i pray for us like evryday but the answer i get is jus keep tryin and u will suceed one day ...i have tried for so long already but somehow all i feel is jus u dun want it back well whenever i read ur blog i will wana tag i type everything and in the end i will backspace it all as i dun kwn if u will be happy to see my name ther or mayeb u think that my name will spoil ur tag board and stuffs ..well this is jus gonna be my second last tym tryin..ba .after ur eoy's i will try for one last time...and if things dun wanna work out than i will really give up ...and try to carry on with my life so far i tried but somehow u dun seem to get out of my mind ..after u read this i dun care if u angry or wat ..butthis is how i seriously feel..


k yesterday was fun fun fun with dexter,mave,wei xiang,nic,vincnet jarritan ,alex and my sis we enjoyed haha and later gonna meet dex to practice guitar and go play daytona whoots and ya yesterday daytona as fun fun we played like 9times la haha

2:45 PM

k will be meeting gang at erm dunno wher to go study and play hah after church will be campfire!!

the pictures taken on sunday haha

12:02 PM

ernest n me

me n wendy

me n my bro
me n bryan
jeff n me

jeff n me

maverick n me

me n cedric

k have alot more but i haven receive yet hah and and i am so tired and dexter didnt wanna take pic with me ..for some lame reason which i wun say here ..casue i dun wanna continue quarrellin with him ..haiz ,, k and alot of people wanted to take pic with me yesterday cause i was in like long dress ..and while sending agatha home something super freaky happen la untill now i m freaked out to walk near that place lol k nvm hah gtg sfor dinner with family so ya .. aww i m super sleepy pls ahaha

...

i liked the feeling of talking back to you but u seem so nt interested in talking back ..well i was rather super happy these few days as i get to tok to u ...

.....

and u yea ur sms really seemed like as if u were saying that i am avoidin u totally i m nt .. but somehow ur sms kinda make me feel bad.. this was wat u siad ...

its nice when strangers become friends but its sad when friends become stranger..i never wanted to lose u .. ..listen hor .. no matter wat . we r best friends 4eva oki neva did avoid u or wat n well i dunw an u to avoid me jus because i m with u knw who ok ...

7:41 PM

Thursday
went to sch after sch went to fun zone at yishun met some people there talked talked ..they wanted to make friends so we chit chated awhile more and wakled around np with them ..and went home later might be going over to wendy's place .. might be overnighting there too

WEDNESDAY

k pon school again hahah and my sis sk me help to go do kite at church **i didnt pon sch cause of church i pon sch cause i was lazy to go**k so didnt manage to finish the kite ..and thn came g12 hahh k sheng gt his korean costume well he is gonna look so eeew hahah ..and and ernest told me all the gals one which arrived looks small aww i wonder if i can fit lol ,and k throught the time we were joking bout some shit stuffs haha ..

k i really liked yesterday ..for some reason .. i jus hope everyday can be like yesterday but somehow i think it wun be


No matter where
we are going
It starts from
where we are

5:40 PM

k changed song again cause i realised it was the same as some people so i dun wish to have the same song and..yup i changed the song
k exam was a little hard ..for me haha but managed to do la .. k after exam didnt do anything much but sit down n talk to my sch frinends hah simon,rizuan,shalini,nisha geeta n fazeela la..chit chat alot and after that went out with them ahah its fun being with them haah and and man a friend of mine is going jail ..

cause he wacked a fellow at ragawoods(pub) aww and well out of the rest onli he gt caught the rest managed to escape ..and haha they clashed with a guy and they were like chasing him with parangs man so sacry la u guys must see the video but well,,thats their kind of life..k anyway supose to meet gang today but didnt but studied with some of them at khatib mac haha and ..well currently chatting on the phone with wei xiang man he is disurbing me .too much he is gonna die super soon

6:44 PM

TOMMRS MY POA EXAM AHHHH I

HAVEN STUDIED

A SINGLE SHIT !!!

10:58 PM

k .. i changed my blog song cause i find this song very nice ..whoots k .. i watched high sch musical 3 times liao whoots its a very nice movie ..k and outing with gang is nice nice nice whoots we met at safra plyed pool first than went to bowl..at safra also hah so i dex,maverick,clarissa,nicole,my sis,alex,bryan,played bowilng while wei xiang ,yong han,jarriatn,and zhi min went home after pool ya well i n dex was the champion for bowling lol hahha

group pic

my shoe n dex shoe the onli green ones hah others blue colour

blured group picture ah lousy camera man hahah

k we had a fun time after that was off to bridge for some catching game after that i had stomach ache so i didnt play hah i alex n nic found a supr duper good hiding place hahah shh dun tell people wher k gtg study now ..hah tommr will be meetin gang again .after sch so ya ciaos

2:27 PM

k i gt to say that today was a fun day ..ok went to church like so late ok nvm sat with kristy ..cause gang had no space left for me :(( haha nvm thn after church chatted with alot of people hang around and than me alex ,maverick ,bryan my sis n me went to amk we took bus 853 there and well i n alex didnt have money in our ez link card we put coins and we didnt take the tickets and the conductor came and we were acting like as if we were on the phone lol so funny the lady came n ask us i said we didnt take the ticket so when i went to take all the tickets were like gone la and we had to pay adult fair as i didnt bring my pass wth 1.70 anyway thanks mave for paying al the bus fare today hah and we made lots of noise la and most was me n alex than we went to zone x (smth like arcade) but cheaper so we played like hell i tell u we played datona like 10 times i guess and i played ,mini air hockey with alex ahah so cute the table is like so super small for bth of us ..k played for very long and than decided to go back home to study as i have exams coming ..

we took 169 back to yihsun and in the bus something so super funny happen haha i was actually smsing vincent so i showed alex one msg and he replied for me k well alex replied nonsense so i kinda like whack him in the bus and i push him but he ws ok so he wanted to run away to the back seat as we were standing and he trip ovr a bag and fell flat in the bus near the door there so he gt up la and we laughed so much .. and alot of things actually happened la ..hah i cant say cause i promised alex i wun say but if u wanna knw ask me online or wat i will sayhahah jus jk jk onli jus to frighten alex lol ..k i gtg mug for exams .. i wonder hw i gonna concentrate with so many things on my mind aww...

*sorry pei zhuang could nt make it for the chalet sorry ...

yesterday went outreach was ok hha after that went to wendy house ..chatted with cedric and everyone helped them do some r zone stuffs and off to dinner with my friends came home onli at 11 plus so tired

7:25 PM

k past few days doing nth except studying n meeting gang ..hhaha k friday was fun day suppose to go meet dex outside sch but last minute cant so nvm =( but still met him at np before going church but didnt sit with him as i felt i have abandoned wendy alot of times so sat with her.. and well she always has to make me u knw ps can when he walked into church she was like pushing my hand and i said i knw and she say u happy right i was like .......

k and after church hanged around with my group of friends and chated for so long wendy ask me if i wanna join her for supper at 925 with her gang i said dun wan hahah thn left the 417 coffee shop at 11 ..and headed home ..


and do i have some deadly deseas that u have to liek turn ur body like 90 degrees ..away when we happen to like walk beside ..each other do u wan the whole world to knw that we r nt .. friends...come on man dun over react ...can ?its like so ...er!!!! k i dunno hw to say but well..

11:35 AM

k lets see exam was ok for me .. hope i can pass beo was open book test i m sure i can pass that too aww its like my new term jus started and exams so fast?? awww i m like so tired nowdays i dun knw why .. i m like dreading to sch everyday .. dragging my big fat body to sch..slacking lazing.. teh exam mood is nt yet there awww.. help me someone ...i dun knw why but i jus cant concentrate thinking of like so many things,....

i met dex at 5.45 didnt go for guitar class instead we went walkin around haha and thnk god things between me n him r ok now haahs ...

k family faith food n fun night was fun and funny haha especially with all that indian stuffs hah n i sat with maverick n wendy like de hahah wendy is so gonna get it from me n i punished her today lor hah why??because she msged SOMEONE(HIM) asking if he something and well i was pissed at first hah but well i jus couldnt get angry with her aahha n started tokin back thn wendy called me hah she wanted to go home with me but i said no ..to punish her to go home alone loL hahahs ..slack with ganag for awhile and off home ...thanks uncle jimmy for that ride home hahas

11:11 PM

AH EXAM IS TOMMROW LA

I M SO NT PREPARED


went to meet gang yesterday n today thats why i was nt online so people if u dun see me online means i m out with gang kaes and today was super fun will say more tommr now need to mug mug n mug

11:04 PM

me n hui qing

me n sam again

me n hui min

faz sha n me

me n azroy kinda wearing the same thng jus that his is the male version n mine is female version haha

me n haffiz

faz n me

k and and hah i love od now hah they rock today we disturb adeline so much haha and sam says he likes everyone LoL..

3:40 PM

SUNDAY

k went to church ..after church was out with gang and well my sis n nic had somemisunderstandings ya hope they will solve it soon ..ba and well hope their misunderstandings wont cause anything to happen to me n dex hah thats wat i n dex were afriad og ..ok so after that half of the group went to study while the other half went to eat so i was with maverick,alex,bryan and my sis so i was hungry so went to 414 coffee shop k while i was eating dean jus suddenly appeared la omg he is getting to our nerves can .. oh ya before i continue people out there FYI we r nt bullying him .. ok we aint so curel he jus sits down crying for i dun knw wat reason to get attention ok ..and it so happens that we r also around that area where he is cryin cause he bascially follows my group everywher la .. and we cant do anything wat well if u think we r bullying him ah ..pls go think again .. try havin him following u everywher n see if he crys himself ..k ..ya and to get away from dean we were like running evry where la he comes so close to our afces and k i n alex was super angry but we controlled .. we jus kept running n well i ran alot man ahah but thnx to maverick n alex to help me carry my big heavy bag while running and dean really can run fast than went to burger king to study with ganag bumbep into virnice n their group there too and yea we r going ther tommr and the rest of the weeks to study too hah k .. must start muggin exams r like this week i guess

and yb3 dun be dissapointed ok ...u guys did ur best .. even though u gt dq .. everyone has to learn from mistakes !!

AMAZING SINGAPORE!!

hahHAs k ..although i didnt run for the race and was the station ic n umpire ..it was super fun...cause why read to find out hah its gonan be a long post .. k lets see i was with pastor casey all lilian jin long darling and my sis all the way hahah so well we headed to our first station whiich was the discovery centre and well pastor made me walk the long way to wher i was suppose to stand alone and he made me walk back to the paddling area ok thn after much discussion he said he should send jin long with me cause he scred i fall in the water while passin the groups the next clue haha well and so to be safe he sent 2 people...and while waiting for like 3 hrs we went walkin walkin n walking and we took pictures with the gundam robot hahhs ..and we kept takin lots of pictures ...pastor casey was laughin at us ...

k than when it was 1 .25 i n jin long was waitiong n waiting for the first team to arrvive ok and well i saw some people at first but could nt reconise them till i saw ernest and cz and well i started jumpin form wher i was standing cause i was happy that my g12 was in the lead hah k than after like 23 g12 came n went well we waited for like an hour for rita's g12 cause they lost their way and dun be dissapointed that u came in last at least u guys didnt give up and thats the best n so was late k than after they came i n jin long went with pastor casey to the nxt station and my sis n lilian went with pas nic cause we were late k than in the car i n jin long was so sleepy can we actually slept halfway when pastor was taking hahas k so funny pls ..

k nvm than went to out next station which was the .. erm dunno wat place la and the poeple runnin was suppose to say the singapore pledge in either chinese or indian and maverick was cute haha he could nt speak bth launguage haha but he tried n he made it hah .and ya afetr that we didnt have time to go to the chopstick place so pastor casey send me jin long liliann my sis to yishun mrt hah and and well we really laughed alot in his car la .. he seriously joked alot with us and well i didnt knw lilian talks so much haah she is cute hahs we had fun disturbing her too hahs lilian if u read this dun murder me loL

well sitting in pastor nic car n pastor casey car have alot of diff hah if i seat in pastor nic car i will be so quiet n wont even turn my head or touch anything in his car and if he talks to me i will jus gove one word answer but well pastor casey is so much fun he was joking n laughin with us so much la ok and i was fiddling with everything in his car ..

lilian went n told pastr nic i said that he is firece thn pastr nic gave me that look and i jus smiled like an jack ass..haha k went to 925 with gang and accompny them to eat dinner and alex scolded dhina in dunno wat bangla launguage hah so funny lor i laughed like hell man we all did laugh alot k and after that met aunty ghandhi and went for diner with their family n my family haah at kfc and and ok i m like watching EVANGEL NEWS ONLINE and still laughin at pastor nic now haha k he is super funny i cant stop laughin

FRIDAY

k emmanuel n dhina came to my house in the morning ya so played with them chated n all with them watched lion king wit them and left to church hahas than after church i my sis went over to dhina house to ton and ok i was so funny pls i was gonna take my shower when i spotted a croackroach in their house toilet well it kinda flew intfromt he window ya so ok . i was freaked out so dhina took the spray to spray at it but he jus spray here n spray ther and he say its dead when it was alive but dunno wher k all this happen at 12 midnight and i wasted my tym till 1 k than i didnt dare bath as we didnt find the roach so after much sprayin or water n finding for it we found it ..it craweled from teh mirror so made dhina kill it and finally i went to bath but with dhina singing outside the toilet hah made him n my sis wait outside the toilet for me n made dhina sing n tok to me while i take a super quick showerr ok ... and dhina didnt let us sleep oh man .. i need to sleep badly now its been so long since i slept peacefully ..

7:16 PM

List out your top 5 b'day presents u wish for:
1.addidas bag
2.the big big elephant doll(50 bucks)
3.some retarded plushie also can
4.hp from mummy
5.anything

The person who tagged you is: Ningih

Your relationship with her is: friendz n class mate

Your 5 impressions of ningsih :1.cute
2.helpful
3.likes to call me sieow
4.dun tok much
5.caring person

The most memorable thing she had done for you: i dun remember lol

The most memorable words she had said to you: cass u r sieow

If she becomes your lover, you will: erm we r nt les>

If she becomes your lover, things she has to improve on will be: she wun be with me

If she becomes your enemy, you will: NO WAY SHE WILL NEVA BE MY EMEMY!!!

If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be: erm misunderstandings!!

The most desire thing you want to do for her now is: i have no idea

Your overall impression of her is: quite person

How you think people around you will feel about you : i have no idea

The character(s) you love about yourself is/are:
fun ,jokes alot,laugh very loud ,easy to make friend,get along well with people ,caring aiya gt alot la dun wish to say

the character(s) you hate of yourself is/are:low self esteem ,dun really knw hw to treasure friends

The most ideal person you want to be is: erm my mum cause ..my mum is the best and she is able to stand on her on n nt depend on others

For people that care and like you, say something to them: thnx for caring n liking me for wat i m .. sorry if i have said or scolded u guys

For pple whom i love n treasure:I'll never leave them

Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you
01.Dexter
02.bao zhen
03.Liling
04. Sam
05. bryan
06. jasmine
07.Jin long
08.Agatha
09.alex khong
10.Maverick

Who is no.6 having relationship with?(jasmine) she's available ;)

Is no.9 a male or female?(Alex)...both hah no la of cause male

If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? (jin long and maverick)..of cause of cause hahah

How bout no.8 and 5?(bryan n agatha).....haha no agatha is booked lol

What is no.2 studying about?(liling )...Office skills

When was the last time you had a chat with no 3?(liling)...in skool

What kind of music band does no.8 like? (agatha)...i have no idea ..lol

Does no.1 has any siblings? (dexter) yes nicole

Will you woo no.3 ?(liling)...if i was a guy yes hahahs

How about no.7 ?(jin long )...she is already my darling right??

is No.4 single? (sam)...no

What is the surname of no.5?(bryan)..Chiang

What is the nickname of no.10?(maverick) mave,gothic fellow,synister gates hhahs

What is the hobby of no.4?(sam)... he loves clubbin i guess

Do no.5 and 9 get along well? (bryan n alex) of cause they can they r besties

Where is no.2 studying at?(bz).anderson sec sch i guess

Have you try developing feelings for no.8? (Agatha)...shes my bestfriend i knw her for liek 10 yrs hw to develop feelings for her ..n i m nt a les

Where does no.9 live at?(alex)...yishun

What color does no.4 like?(sam)...let me guess gay colours like pink n yellow lol

Are no.5 and 1 best friends?(dexter n bryan)...yup yup

Does no.7 likes no.2?(jin long n bao zhen)...as frineds yes

How do you get to know no.2?(bao zhen). church

Does no.1 have any pets? (dexter). no

Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? (jin long ) can say hahah lol

12:11 PM

yesterday maverick followed me to the aiport and well we laughed alot and one part i did something so embarassing and i didnt knw aunty adeline and uncle vincent and pastor quek looking at me and than was g12 so after g12 was funny well we went to new tork pizza and after that i n mysis came out with the idea of like pointing to the sky n lookin and well everyone will probably follow ..so well we gave the idea and ernest did it i n my sis also did it and serioisly people did look ..and well we laughed like hell ..k thats all i have to say for yesterday

k i seriously have nt been going to school propely ..and thats bad can ?its been like 2 weeks since i really went to sch well i onli went to shc on tuesday as i had an exam the beg wan,..well and and next week i m gonna start going to school propely .. i promise hahas well yesterday ton over at emmanuel house .and did nt really sleep ..untill like 4 plus well we played monopoly and stayed awake till3 plus by 3

we were all tired except for dhina and he didnt let us sleep he poured colgate on usn our faces so well we stayed up a little longer well emmauel n my sis slept liao ..so i n dhina listen to music till my mp4 went flat ..and int he morning we left their hs .and i came home n slept well today its their turn to come my house hah aunty ghandhi n family are coming over to my hs to ton today n tomrm hah whoots .. so fun can its like bth our families are so super close and and we enjoy each others company ..k gtg clean my house now haiz hahs.. and dex we haven beemn toking for very long hah i miss tokin to you lol nvm wait till we bth settle down with all our things


k and i believe u r nt putting enough effort to piece them back togeter ..well i knw its u dun wanna say it out but well would u jsu pls say it out . i dun wan it to take months thats like super way too long well .. well refering back to ur past posts which was way long ago i wil say i really did try breakin ice well but its to strong ..would u mind melting it a little??

4:08 PM

sammy n me

sam (very handsome right) lol

sally n me

hui min n me

me n darling ling

me n ling again

me n ningsih

class formal photo

sammy

pricilla n hui min

hah n tommr whoots will be going out with fantastic infinty and than g12 and after that will ne overnighting in aunty ghandhi's(dhina and emmanuel's mum) house hahh

9:24 PM

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